I Read Somewhere

I read somewhere ..something like.. when someone whether consciously or unconsciously lives in fear and hides from the world..there inner and outer beauty starts to wither and die.  All I am saying is.. I feel the need to stop hiding as I heal and get stronger.  I don't expect to be the beautiful inner and outer me that I was before.  I expect a me that is no longer afraid.  I am not sure what that is.  The old me even if you say yes, my inner and outer back then was beautiful and perfect yes it was and..- I was always just surviving.  I feel it, I taste it, I want it, I long for it. I want to live, not just survive - live.  I say it, I write it, I breathe it, I dream it because I am, and I shall live ands so shall it be.  Thank you Lord.